poetry fix: stung {ode to a spelling bee}
Ahh, it’s that time of year again — the season to be glad we’re not the ones sweating it out on the National Spelling Bee stage, trying to spell words like “staphylococci” or “appoggiatura” in front of the world.
I was inspired to post my poem, “stung,” after reading about Lori Anne Madison, the youngest speller in bee history. This six year-old Virginian was eliminated when she started “ingluvies,” with an “e” instead of an “i.”
Hopefully, Lori Anne had someone like Mrs. Barlofsky to throw her a life ring. For me, “stung” has always been about the difference one person can make in each of our lives, seeing us for who we really are and aspire to be, especially in those scary moments darkened by disappointment or confusion.
Throughout my childhood, I had lots of Mrs. Barlofskys — adults {many of them teachers} who helped me believe in me. “Grateful” isn’t a big enough word to express how thankful I am for their unwavering support, so this poem was born.
stung
It takes a few seconds to sink in.
I forgot the middle “o” in sophomore.
That means it’s time to slink on back
to that cold, metal folding chair.
I never expected to go down this way.
I tried to do everything right and
even chose these chartreuse corduroys –
the ones that whisper swish when I walk –
because chartreuse is one of my lucky words.
Some people put the u before the e or forget the e altogether,
but eu has always been easy for me to remember.
Just like algorithm and luminescence were tonight.
Don’t think I didn’t see Chester Mahoney sweating it
when I rattled off weisenboden
(a meadow soil, though that doesn’t matter)
without blinking.
And Liza Conforti’s eyebrows, they actually twitched
when I spelled psoriasis without pause.
I consider protesting.
I mean, sophomore is so clearly a Round 1 word –
maybe early Round 2, but definitely not Round 5.
I think the simplicity of it caught me off guard.
If the judges were really paying attention, they’d realize
sophomore was out-of-order, and then
wouldn’t that make my erroneous answer irrelevant?
(Erroneous, for the record, another favorite.)
Don’t these judges realize that my dad is in Mexico
with a woman whose name I can’t pronounce but
know must sound like all the forgotten things he searched for
when he used to stare out the window after dinner?
Do they even have a clue how his escape triggered
Mom’s gluttonous reading binge? It could be worse, sure—
Wild Turkey, Malomars, men with body odor, bad tempers or both – but
we are drowning in dog-eared, musty paperbacks
she buys ten for a dollar from the thrift shop.
Most days, she doesn’t even look up
when I walk through the door.
I’m sure they can’t imagine what it’s like being born to spell.
I’m not pretty or witty or athletic or interesting.
I memorize letter combinations while eating
cheese and potato chip sandwiches
because Mom stopped going into the kitchen, and
I’d choose spelling over cooking any day.
I know, I know . . .
it’s time for me to exit stage left so
Jada Clifton gets her turn at bat,
but my legs just aren’t listening to what
my brain is telling them to do.
That’s when I see my teacher.
Mrs. Barlofsky is striding toward me,
one hand outstretched to clasp mine,
her bright orange bangle a life ring.
She looks right at me, smiling because
she believes I’m so much more than a forgotten “o,”
and she knows for sure I’m someone who will be fluent in Spanish
and harnessing dreams, someone who’s not at all afraid
this was her last chance to shine.